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It's 4:50 am and here I sit, crying my stupid eyes out!  Alex just left for the airport to go back to Texas for college and we got in a huge argument because he left his wallet at the condo 2 hours away!!!!  I was annoyed, he was annoyed and Steve was annoyed...so we were all screaming at eachother like we were total freaking  strangers and not people that love each other!!!  Now, I feel so awful and I'm sitting here sobbing !!!  i'm so upset with myself for doing this! 
I'm so freaking stressed from this stupid move, Nonnie 's death and now fighting with my son who lives 2000 miles from me!  Not to mention that  I'm typing this to total strangers who don't even know me and could care less anyways.
I don't want to hate my life but I do right now.

Pleas pray for me because I'm losing it!


huge hugs and prayers! just trust that this fight does not define you or your relationship in any way. folks get stressed out and that's what happens. i'm sure your son and your husband feel just as bad about it now and KNOW that you love them despite the less than ideal goodbye

i agree with the first commenter... these things, happen, lovely. families fight sometimes. i know my family is loving and wonderful most of the time, but there are times when you just lose it. it's no fault of anyone specifically... it just happens.

and i understand how 'losing it' feels. i've been feeling this way for a very long time. :( it's the reason why i don't write anymore. i just... can't. everything seems just that much more difficult and i feel that much more like a loser.

but you aren't. and you'll patch things up and things will be alright again soon. i promise. nonnie is happy where she is. i can see that beautiful smile now. :) i know you miss her, but she's where she should be. i know that.

and the process of moving is just temporary. once you're settled in you'll be able to take a deep breath and enjoy your surroundings. granted, it will take some getting used to, but every change brings that. you'll be okay, sweetpea.

[love and many many hugs]

I'm sorry if I am out of place, but I saw your comment and just wanted to tell you that you are not a loser, everyone has something wonderful about them!!

:)

thank you.

and you aren't out of place at all. <3

I care. All we mothers do things like that occasionally. You just have too much stress right now. You could text or call Alex to say you're sorry things ended up like that. I know for certain you're a wonderful mother and that your sons know how much they are loved. Saying a little prayer for you right now!

Oh gosh, you're *human*! Isn't that reassuring? You will get past all this.

Shall I mention the time as a teenager that my family was on a cross-country car trip and I left my backpack with all my most valuable possessions at a truck stop somewhere in Nebraska? And how my sainted father drove back some 75 miles so I could retrieve it? He wasn't feeling the sainthood at the time and neither was my mother.

But we lived through it and it eventually became a "family story."

Petition the Little Flower for some personal peace. Take it from me ... ain't nuthin' lookin' good at 4:50 am.

=^..^=

oh sweetie, we might be strangers but we DO love you and care about you!!! first of all, STOP beating yourself up over this. families fight, people get stressed, small breakdowns happen. to EVERYONE. accept that you are overwhelmed and missing Alex, and allow yourself to scream or cry or hit something until you get it all out. then, call alex and talk it out. it was just an argument, nothing serious. then take a deep breath and start working on the move in small steps, maybe make a list. I'm a list maker, it always helps me to have something to check off or mark out. and we are here for you, whatever you need! even if it's just letting us listen while you vent, we will! *huge hugs* and prayers coming your way!!!

Awwwww, Lindy, I'm so sorry!!!! *hugs tightly and comforts *

I agree with the other commenters - first off, we DO care about you, probably more than you know! Second, I'm not sure how much I love my brother, but I adore him and we get along famously well, but that doesn't stop us from fighting from time to time. And sometimes, I think the closer you are, the worse your fights get, but they'll be patched up in the end. :-)

Everyone has bad days. Why don't you make a mug of tea, grab a favourite book, and hit the sack a little earlier tonight? That way your fresh start will come all the sooner. :-)

Dear God, send Angels to comfort my little friend. This is a very difficult time for her. We feel her pain and want it eased. Help her find her pretty things during all the moving. Help her remember good times. Help her to be calm and happy.

Amen.

Oh, I'm so sorry! {{{Hugs}}} and prayers are on their way.


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